Blaze Like Meteors

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.


Just phoned through for my results, rather than wait for the email. I think that's the way I'm likely to be with this. I mean, calling in means you control when and where you get the news. By email, you could be at work or on holiday when it comes. Still, there's nothing for me to be concerned about yet, CD4 is 486, up a little on last time and Viral Load is 33081, so down on how it's been. It's the first time, though, that two sets of results have been similar. Let's hope that they remain that way. I wonder if I could try to boost my CD4 through careful living a little more, so my Christmas results won't be the nasty surprise they were last year when somehow I got a result of 85 which was either to do with them making a mistake, me having a rough time of it or indicative that I was diagnosed while seroconverting. No real way of knowing; it's only been a year.

Do I need to work hard to change the result next time? No, I don't think I want to. This virus has invaded my mind as much as it's invaded my body and I'm not really willing to allow it to invade my time any more than it must. I might start going back to acupuncture, more for aches and pains than for that, but I'm generally fit and well, and although the chest infection that knocks other people out for four or five days knocked me out for two weeks, I think I'm generally healthy.

One year. Nothing to say. Let's keep it that way.